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I think wisdom would be the ability to discern the choices that will give you the most out of life. I'm not sure if wisdom is also knowing what you want to get out of life. If that's even relevant.
I often find it trivial to make words out of the deeper concepts in life, but I find sometimes I'm really good at it, and if you're very lucky someone may actually get something that you formulate the words to relate.

I'm very glad about where I am in life right now. Perhaps I'm spending more time putting effort into life to collect later the benefits that I hope to take out of it.

People who want to know the meaning of life mean it's purpose, and that's about as applicable as asking what number the universe is.

Words are too infrequently trumped by the concepts that they are intended to relate. Words never succeed in capturing the reality of a situation. There's always some effort required on the part of the recipient. Too often the unspoken disclaimer regarding the inherent invalidity of a description is disregarded. It's all too easy to forget. It's all to easy to forget about the supposed reality these words weave references of.

I've never been good at making my words succinct or concrete. Absolutes seem impossibilities. Everything is an abstraction. Knowledge and definition is a limit of accuracy that's assumed for our own expediency. An expediency that is all too often forgotten for the convenience of the moment. Our opinions and beliefs for which we abuse others for conflicting are pathetic in their irrelevance.

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I had my wisdom teeth taken out yesterday. In pain.

Been working for VivaNet 2.0 again. I've done a couple of projects, learning a lot.

I've been approved for graduation, but I had to drop my fine arts credit before the class started. I've now been approved for graduation after Spring Semester 2010 after which I will have some post grad classes and then I'll be going to Weber State for my bachelor's degree which I can take all my courses for at the Redwood Campus.

I've been working out at least 3 times a week at the SLCC gym, I'm up to 140 pounds for the first time since high school, although I'm sure I'll lose weight because of my oral surgery.

Stormy's baby shower is this Saturday, the 18th. I'm stoked.

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I've been doing well in class. I had a meeting last Tuesday with the division chair of the CIS department at SLCC about the instructor who gave me the unfair grade and refuses to respond to me. She emailed him that he should call me to explain his reasons for the grad, and when he doesn't I'll be back in her office on next Tuesday to deal with it another way. Stormy's pregnancy is going well. Crystal had a miscarriage and it affected Stormy a great deal. She is such a compassionate person. She burst into tears after she got off the phone, telling Crystal that she was always there for her, saying that she can't imagine what Crystal has to be going through, poor Crystal, and such. It's very sad, but I'm not sure it's a bad thing for Crystal right now and she seems to know that. She'll be in town on the 19th and her and Stormy will be going out. It will be on a Thursday so I will be going as well.
I still trade letters with Mike, he's doing well. Amy hasn't been doing too well I hear, which makes us sad. We've tried to reach her a few times over the last few months to no avail. We got our tax return and paid off a bunch of debt. I have to go to the bank today to get out some cash and talk about refinancing my car.

I have to think of something to run this Friday for Rifts. I was hoping to cancel for good when I skipped last weekend, because I do not have this sort of time, but I wanted to play so I said that I would GM on that day.

Richard's number has changed. He told me that he would be getting rid of it. Allen said he'd be coming to town this weekend and I would love to drag him to the bar with us.

Anjuli is leaving next week, it has been wonderful to get to know her better, she's going to be missed.

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Tim went back to Georgia on Friday. We hung out on Thursday and had a beer. After Stormy went to bed we hiked up to Ensign Peak and looked out over the city lights.

Anjuli just got back into town from California where she was visiting her sick aunt. She stopped by the coffee shop to see Stormy right after I left, having spent the rest of the day before that there doing homework.

David took Morgan today for a few hours. I didn't think that he would come at all. He postponed to Saturday morning, then Saturday night, then Sunday morning, and finally got her Sunday afternoon. We've told him, and actually followed through with it a few times, that if he doesn't give us more than a days notice for a change by Friday then it may not be his weekend anymore, but Stormy felt that since we didn't have any plans Dave could just take her any time. I thought we should have told him too bad after the third cancellation, but we don't need to create hostilities.

I watched Arianne and Xavay for a few hours so that Byron and Angela could go on a date for their anniversary. Afterwords they hung out at our place until I had to leave for work and we shared some movies and music.

Yesterday was the first day that I took sick leave for in a while. Austin and I left early because we haven't had our truck to pull the carpet cleaning equipment and therefore can't really do anything. It has sucked pretty bad.

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I don't have the internet at my new house yet, so it's been a while since I've updated. I moved into a trailer in West Valley. I'm going to school nearly full time, I was moved on to carpet crew at Redwood, Stormy is getting a lot of hours at the cofee shop and still working at SLCC's Sandy campus. I'm getting along great with Austin, although it's not like we are going to become good buddies or anything.

I've been dealing with my CIS 2010 instructor from last semester because for some reason I can't deduce and he won't tell me he gave me a D in a class for which I turned in all of the assignments, only one being late, and set the grading scale for the final by having the highest grade in the class. How the fuck does someone give you a D in that situation? I've been emailing him and am feeling like he's blowing me off and won't just flat out tell me why that happened. He said he's still working on my grade, but I'm having doubts. Anyways, my classes this semester are doing great, and every other class I've taken in the last three semesters is an A, so I'm feeling pretty good.

Stormy is pregnant! That's the biggest news. We're so damn stoked excited. We found out on Saturday the 24th of January, 2009. We're not sure when she conceived, we were doing a lot of baby making since she got off of her birth control at the beginning of January, so sometime then.

Oh yeah, Richard had to give up a cat because it was fucking with his lizard so we now own a kitty. Stormy is super happy that she finally got me to cave on the no pets issue. We named her Izzy, she looks freakily like Shannon's cat Rusty only is a female, and she's been working out really well. Very sweet, well behaved, affectionate cat that is already spayed and inoculated. We just need to get her declawed before she destroys my bean bags.

Irony and change.

So they're moving me at work. I'm going to be on the carpet crew with Austin, Alisha's ex-boyfriend, effective January 5th. Daron, a good guy from Jordan, will be taking my place. I'm not sure what Stormy will think. I wanted a position at Redwood (although we will be driving around the whole valley, in actuality) the whole time that I lived on 2200 W, but as soon as we move, they're going to put me there... with Austin. I'm excited. It should be a real trip.
This Saturday is a silly white rhino party with Stormy's siblings during a time that she works. I have to take Morgan for at least a little while. I've had plans on that day for a while and am hoping that I can convince Stormy's family to just watch Morgan if I drop her off and some presents. I've been meaning to run this Rifts game for a long time now and have been preparing for a good deal of my spare time.
Richard's in town and Tim's leaving town, although he will be back after Christmas. Which is a great deal being that Allen will be in SLC for a few weeks after Christmas and it will give us our first opportunity to hang out since my wedding, which wasn't much of an opportunity to chill, really.
Stormy is loving her job at Beans & Brews. She gets free coffee. I love her.
Later today we get to take a look at our house and see if it's all fit together nicely and such before the final installation is under way.
The times are good, considering.

So Bush destroyed our economy. I don't know how many times I've been telling people he has been destroying our economy. I don't know how many times I said that they would let the economy crash close to the end of his last term. I bet there are people who are sad to see him go. People that are sad that McCain with Phil Grahm, the nemesis to the American economy, at his side didn't get into office. I've said everything before, recited the statistics and policies, the figures and legislations, but no one cares.
I just hope some people remember what Bush did, and how much McCain did to support it, and how much Ted Kennedy, Al Gore, Barack Obama, Bill Clinton, Dennis Kucinich, and Howard Dean have strived to protect us amidst so much failure among the Democrats to do so. You can't trust a Democrat, but you can sure as hell trust a Republican. Even that Paul fucker wanted to do away with public services and education. Yeah, that was some revolution. Besides that, it doesn't matter if they don't know anything about economic history, we have a power for the betterment of our country coming into phase. We're all still more than a little scared what the, in many ways worst, president of our country will do to us before he loses power.
There's nothing worth saying about the horrible things he has done. They number in the thousands and I can recite hundreds, but the only people that care have realized a political stance must be made to protect our country from the neo-conservative agenda. He and his administration have committed more crimes that the Constitution mandates impeachment for than can be counted on a person's fingers. No, I do not care what News-Corp has to say on the subject or any of those other idiots. I've seen the best arguments and defenses anyone could muster, and they're pathetic. None of those people ever had one thing to say in response to any of the facts I faced them with that shattered their ridiculous notions. The only response I've ever gotten to my supplying evidence correcting the ridiculous stream of propoganda to come from the Murdoch machine and it's ilk is a blank stare off into space and a total cessation of conversation. It's a reaction that is very frighteningly suggestive of the idea that these people have been brainwashed.
What can you do?
No one cares.
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Cut backs at work, and a must-see show today.

Stormy's hours just got cut today. She very badly needs to get another job. It's a good thing in a way because now it will be much more reasonable for her to work two jobs.
We finally heard back from the trailer park we applied at and they gave us a list of open lots we could choose from. Stormy, since she now has the rest of the week off, is going to look at them today. We looked last night, but it was too dark and Stormy was frustrated about work. They told us we have a month to get the trailer placed on the lot until we have to reapply. They never told us when the month starts. Stormy needs to ask them that when she calls them to tell them what lot we're going to reserve.
OhGr should be coming to town today. He has a new CD (yay). I'd love to go to the show, but all things considered with our incredibly tight budget it seems that it won't happen. I actually have two holidays this week though... I could probably just take it as one of my holiday days this week. I don't know, I want to go, but ah fuck it I should go. I'm going. I'll just use today as my holiday so that it doesn't go to sick leave and get taken out of my overtime. Shit... I know I can just, like, get away with it, but I should at least confirm it with my supervisor first. If I can get my Thanksgiving holiday taken early or count as half of tonight and then I could do a half day on Sunday then I'll just plain and simple absolutely have to fork out the measily $18 to see ohGr.
I would also like to take the time to mention that Fallout 3 is a fucking awesome game.
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Everyone's sick but me, life update, and some more drama.

Stormy's feeling really sick. We'll have to get her to the instacare or a doctor if she is still feeling excruciating pain in her stomach tomorrow.
Morgan just went to the doctor's for strep and perhaps a UTI. We haven't hear back about the UTI yet, but the antibiotics for her strep will take care of it anyways and she no longer seems to have symptoms of one. She was also having really bad diarhea for weeks, and we had taken her to the doctor's for that earlier. They just recommended that we give her some yogurt three times a day. She seems to be over that as well. Lastly, she has really bad warts on her right palm, and we've gotten some wart remover for that and they're nearly gone. Stormy's mother started telling everyone in her family that she is a bad mother because we had put duct tape on her palm for her warts. Stormy's mother, who has not seen the warts, was yelling at Stormy over the phone because they aren't warts, they are hand foot and mouth disease. Stormy asked how she knows, what are the symptoms of it, and Stormy's mother shouted back, "I don't fucking know!" So she is 200 miles away, has not seen the warts, doesn't know what hand foot and mouth disease is, but shouted at her for an hour on the phone and called up her sisters to tell them that she is a terrible mother and that her pediatrician is a moron for possibly thinking these things Debbie has not seen could be warts. The doctor, my father, and the medical advice we looked up on the internet for warts all suggested that duct tape was a cheap way to get rid of them, but it just couldn't stay on and got them too moist.
Anyways, we've been saving up money really well. Damn I'd love to see oHgr this Wednesday, but I really don't want to spend the money since we've been doing so well. We just filled out another loan application to see if we could get a better interest rate. We may hear back before the holiday. The lot we were expecting to get in can't be gotten a hold of and won't call me back regarding our application. I didn't expect it would have any problems, but I'd really like to hear some sort of confirmation from them. I've gotten some overtime this pay period, and that's also going to help us a lot. Still no word about Stormy's second job.
Allen has a lot more work and money. I just finished up a work order for an error with bartmurphy.com and have been trying to get civilizzation.com wrapped up. Mostly all we are waiting for is feedback on some things from them. We don't mind taking the time, but some people in their company are seeming to get impatient as we are waiting for some collaberation from their database technician. Creating a website is never done well if it isn't a two part effort between the customer and the developers. Use cases need to be approved, domain expertise has to be provided, and obviously thorough software specifications must be given.
This semester is almost over. Next semester I will be taking more classes. I should have my 2 year degree by the end of fall semester next year.
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The video in question in this article makes some concessions as to the innocense of most Muslims and even their pacifism, peacefulness, and morality. Watch the whole thing and talk to people who are in line with this sort of thinking. It's just plain hateful bullshit.


I'm just a little sensitive and disturbed from a conversation I had a few weeks ago with a member of the military that was mortified with offense that I did not believe our country opposes, condemns, and is at war with Muslims and Islam. Since this conversation, I bring up this subject and how it disturbed me, only to find that so many others have been inflicted with this same sickness of the mind and think we need to show violence to these people. In what way does this violence with extreme prejudism fight religious terrorism?

I've never wholely made this conviction of opinion before, I find it overused and annoying, but it is absolutely anti-american to consider our entire nation itself at war with a religion. I feel it as necessary to be intolerant to dogmas of prejudism and hatred as it is necessary to execute mass murderers. People who adopt these sorts of beliefs need to roll over and get dead, fast. Patriotism and immorality are mutually exclusive. If something is immoral and called 'patrioitc' or 'nationalism', it is not justified, but wrong more so for calling itself those things.